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Mood: DEVISTATED! crying my EYES out!...STILL!
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I will ALWAYS remember Tanner Chamberlain, I have thought of him every day since we broke up, believe it or not. Even though I acted like I was mad at him because I thought he played me, I didn't fully believe it. I just knew there had to be a better reason for that sudden break up we had. I never compleatly got over him, every time I thought of him after the break up, and even when we were together, I just said to myself, "I really miss him right now..." I never really knew what to think of it, but I knew that I needed him in my life. I didn't really have a good reason to think of, for why he suddenly said he was upset and confused. You'll find out what I'm talking about if you read all of the messages. I still have the messages that were sent back and forth between us, you can check that out in another blog, I'm going to put them up. But when he said he told his friends about me, and how I make his so happy, he said that his friends said I was probably using him, and I would NEVER do that, he was the world to me. When he told me about what his friends had said, the first thing that went through my head was that he was just playing a joke on me. I asked him why his friends would say that, and that I would never even THINK about using him. But he kept saying that he didnt know who to believe, and that he felt really depressed and didn't feel like talking to anyone. I was really worried about him, I just broke down right there. I cried and cried, andi kept telling him. But he wouldn't listen. I'm crying as i type this, It's very hard to describe what I'm feeling right now. All I know is, I miss him, I need him in my life, and he didn't deserve to die, it couldnt have been his time, but even if, it IS not fair. You never know what love feels like, untill you've given it away, or have had it taken from you. Tanner, if somehow you get to read this from where ever you are right now, I love you, I miss you, more than you will ever know.
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What I'd do for him...
Kiss him

Hug him

Try to cheer him up when he's down

Take care of him when he feels sick

Never lie to him

Be there for him

Never walk out on him

Watch a movie with him

Dance in the rain with him

Walk him to the park

Message him

Comment him

Call him

Buy a drink for him

Just sit and chill with him

Say hi just to hear his voice

Think of him every day

Wish to be with him all the time

Hold his hand

Let him borrow my car

Bring him around my friends

Do something incredibly sweet for him

Walk in the park with him

Actually talk to him

Try to make him laugh

Watch the sunset with him

Count the stars with him

Sing with him

Think of him every day at least once

Wish i was with him

Walk the beach with him

Look for sea shells with him

Sit under a tree with him

Write poems for him

Draw pictures for him

NEVER cheat on him

NEVER brake his heart

Remember him...

And always, always,

Love him...
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hello, i am one of the COOLEST dorks ull ever meet. [no jk im no dork] but i admit im a little crazy [and a liiiiiiittle insane] lol. love love LOVE hawthorne heights and three days grace. my favorite colors are black [mostly] yellow [cuz im a yellow dino] and red. im 13. lets see..what else...im random most of the time [when im hyper...usually am] i think brakets are so dino!!! [which you can see...] ... [dino means awesome in my language] im all about emo, punk rock, and goth. [im a little bit of all] mostly emo. xD love to sing. love to write poety. love to draw and create new art. basicly, LOVE TO HAVE FUN!!!! [my definition of fun: making all the preps look stupid in front of the guys they like] um.....i think this is the end of my rant. anything else just ask.
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If you know my number, call me. but only certain people can.
-Tobi [My BESTEST friend]
-Isaiah [My Other best friend]
-Jessica [Un-biological sister]
-Jacob [some guy...no jk]
[X]Can call now... [] Cant call now...
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