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I'm TeeJay.

Well...we all know that the images we see can elicit strong emotional reactions. But I always wondered, can the images we see do more than hurt us emotionally? Is it possible to see something so bad that it actually hurts you physically? In other words, can too much of this life hurt you?
So theres really not much to know about me.
I'm not looking for a girl watsoever. I'm just walking around this omniadventurous life of mine waiting to see what comes my way and who really wants to find and meet me will. It's kinda like a game of hide and seek, except I'm always hiding. I dig a girl with a little dance in her step, one thats affiliated with the same things as me but is also chill and able to be as bominous as me and my friends. One that just won't care about spending a night together doing absolutely nothing but laying together and having a good time, I'm a sucker for cute stuff and the moments they tend to bring upon me. I also dig a girl who likes to party and go out and have a good time, one willing to hang out with my friends as I will do so to them. One who is into drugs and drinking and having a damn good time but is also not dependent on getting fucked up 24/7. I'm as stubborn as anyone and never really get what I want and I want to keep it that way, I like a challenge, and if your not only able but actually willing to put up with me, I'll automatically give you respect for trying, it meens more then you think. Things don't really seem to last for me and I seem to mess things up alot, but hey im used to it by now. See one thing is you can't tell me I can't do something because I'll do it right before your eyes. And I'll be quite honest, I hate myself more than anything in the world, like the way I look, the way I act, just pretty much everything about me. But at the same time I have the friends and the confidence that keeps me going. Some people say im conceited, but I know I'm not, I just know im badass as fuck, thats just who I am, if you have such a big problem with it, then don't talk to me. I don't tend to look down upon myself unless I'm alone because I don't like people seeing the weak side of me. It dosn't come out often because I tend to hold myself together well. There is alot no one really knows about me and very few who are even interested in finding out. But the few people who give a shit to care about me are the few people that are my best and REAL friends. I don't need a whole bunch of friends, i meen hey I've never even had friends until these guys showed up last summer. A lot of people know me of how I used to be and nothing of how i am now. So when people ask around and learn things about me, they may be true, but keep in mind...people change. And if you think any different don't be such a bitch about it and talk to me about them instead of assuming shit and believing shit thats just not true. It has happened to me my whole life so don't think you can bring me down by doing so, I'm way to smart for that. I meen hey I just be myself, I dress how I want, act how I want, and pretty much do whatever I want, and never let things hold me back from the things I want to do or the ways I want to act and what I WILL become. I meen hey I don't have all the answers and I've failed just as much as I have succeeded in life, but I think thats how it is with everyone, i meen hey no ones perfect and if everyone was we would all just be the same boring people. Everyone's different for a reason, you just kinda have to find where you are comfortable. You can't learn everything there is to know from just one person, you need to expand yourself to others to teach you the things about life that you need to know. I meen we are only human, we adapt to survive.