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HOLY FUCKING SHIT! FINALLY! I GOT MY ACC BACK! >:3

Im inlove and i am happy about it. i wont ever be happier in any relationship that i have ever again if this one was to end. Hes amazing, and i love everything about him. I want nothing else, but to be by his side for as long as i live and even through death ♥

Theres no way ill ever run from him like i would another, i would never give him up, i wont let him be hurt, and if his harm is something i cant prevent then i will be hurt and i will lay next to him through all his healing and i will comfort him as much as is in my power. when i describe love, even it doesnt show how much i do love him, i would die for him. ill take on heaven and hell for him, the world, all worlds, all universes and more just to be with him. i will not ever back down if it means that he'll be safe and happy, i never want to see him mad, i feel his emotions.

hes everything ive ever wanted, everything ive ever asked for, hes just sooo perfect, its just too indescribable, and i love that about him too!

Sidney, i love you now and forever, i wish i was right next to you right now, and i'll always be here by your side, nothing will stop me from loving you and i cant wait to show you how much i TRUELY LOVE YOU!

before you, i couldnt truely smile, without having to fake it, i felt no emotion other than hate and depression, i always felt alone, like everyone around me was against me, and that they would and will betray me. i feared alot, though i didnt feel it, and i couldnt show it; but for you i will be strong. I will stop all bad things as best as i can and make them stop happening to you. and i will never surrender.

ive gone through disownment since the day i was born, my birth parents..... my birth family... then rejection came, no one liked me and i never had any friends until 4th grade. my adopted parents got a divorce and then after that i still put up with the bull shit that kids put me through but i also retalliated, and soon enough i had become nothing. my adopted father who had met a new wife disowned me after i thought he was gonna stay and after i accepted the shit that happened to me... his heavey drinking and greedyness is what had currupted him, and thats when it became worse... i was accused of stealing when i was only taking what my brother had given to me as a present from himself that he had a few years before that.... then when i was constantly gf rejected, i was already currupted myself and had bedome self abusive mentally, somewhat physically and completely emotionally... i still cant help but put myself down, but i wont take it from any one else... my adopted mom has already threatened to send me foster home, then to my grandmothers or brothers, or to kick me out. i had already prepared just in case but she wouldnt let me leave... im trapped in a twisted hell that wont stop comming after me, but i wont give in, not yet because sidney gave me reason to live.

i promise i will do all in my power to make him happy and keep him happy i would and will give up everything if i have to, because even if my mom takes everything, i know that she'll never be able to separate sidney and i, theres nothing i care about more than i care about sidney, and i love nothing more or even close to how much i love him.