xoGreeneyes17 I'm Online

The taste of bitterness on my tongue
the sheltered cold that breach my bones
the fire rising in my throat
waves of agony in undertones

shudders that shake my fragile frame
tremerous pain crawling up my spine
breath chocked back in wheezing gasps
and slow sounding sobs and quiet whines

wrapped up in quilts to seek the warmth
breath coming slowly eyes clenched tight
body rocking back and forth
seeking rest throughout the night

I know we all have problems
it's not so hard to tell
sometimes things will workout
while others not so well
there are times when we may break down
a crack that starts within
and with our heavy burdens
we do not know where to begin

life started out so simple
yet now it's incomplete
life threw open all its doors
and swept me off my feet
i've lost so many loved ones
and still i don't let go
those moments were just to precious
a fact that i now know
And with it followed heartbreak
those cuts will heal in time
for now i'll just make some new bonds
that solely are just mine
I'll sew a design together
so these ties will form a quilt
one ruled by laughter and kindness
and never fear or guilt
That blanket is our safety
to help us through a storm
protect us while were sleeping
until it becomes dawn

And when that mornings shining
and your swiftly out of bed
i'll will still be waiting
my hand ruffling the hair on your head
i know that you can't see me
but i will hold you near
and as long as your beside me
you have little then to fear
my arms like wings will hold you
in times of greatest need
let the rain mix with all your tears
in it final healing deed

The wind is salty on the water
My rapid steps begin to falter
The dancing fragments in the air
Twisting trendles of my hair
My eyes are forced upon the ripples
They start to swell and even tripple
And i can see with some detection
The outline of my own reflection
Idly i gaze upon the scene
As if i stepped into a dream
The sunlight warm against my skin
The warmth starts spreading deep within
I lay my head upon the railing
The path that i had been softly trailing
Still beckoned me to walk away
when everything told me to stay
The bridg three feet above the waves
And i enjoyed that summer day
The flashy colors so serene
such a sight to have been seen

I’ve been down so many roads
Yet it was here upon this trail
That we came to a dead stop
On opposite sides of the veil

You were let down confused
Broken hearted, betrayed
There were times we both would listen
To the other one’s delays

You were strumming songs of something
Yet I couldn’t hear the tune
It was like you were non existent
Just a figment of the moon

But still I saw a wavering shadow
Though it was far beyond my grasp
Curiosity of what unspoken words
Has yet to come to past

You had golden dreams, ambitions
And you sought to shake your wings
You were ready for a new world
Beyond the control of fair fate’s strings

It was something like a ray of sun
That ripped right through the veil
You left me with a single thought
I hope that you prevail

So many years will pass you by
And friendships come along
I hope that you meet many kinds
And those friendships, remain strong!

if you strum chords then we'll find ourselves a band, a drummer and a base player who aren't no one night stands.
A group that'll come together and eventually become friends,
that rock the night and stars of twilight, without it coming to an end.
And i'll just sing the ballad, the back ground voice and you,
you the star to shine out, and show what you can do.
And in that infinite silence, as the chords rip in the air.
the thrum of heat and even blood, the musical drug that we bare.
The roaring crowd a distant hum, we're gods upon a stage.
The lights raining down upon us, without melting us away.
The pounding beat of the drummer the lowly notes that grow.
The people at the gateway, who want to see our show.
so if you strum a few chords, then i'll be glad to sing with you.
Even if we're not the hot shot band, it's the joy of what we can do. So sure i'll sing a ballad, and you can be the lead.
And i'll be the one in the background, so no one else can see.
And if you play the guitar then, i know just where i'll be.
i'll be at the piano, writing some poetry.

When you're around
the world seems more complete
what's the point of all the walking
When you sweep me off my feet
I will dance with you
on the waning edge...and wait for your return
there is nothing like living life
where each moment you might yearn

Chorus....
please say my name
before you disappear
don't leave me in the rain
with the pain of what we'd shared

Just looking to the side
doesn't tell me a thing
look me in the eye
and let love bloom like spring

I follow in your shadow
and i hope you will not leave
I wait for you to turn
and beckon just for me
I've had my share of sorrows
yet i'm telling you this
you not smilling any more
is what i'd truly miss

Chorus...
please say my name
before you disappear
don't leave me in the rain
with the pain of what we'd shared

You look alot like lonely
even though i'm standing here
what is it you're not telling
what emotions can't you bare

I've cried into your shoulder
but the tears are not just mine
i wish that you could tell me
why everything is not fine
i swear you look so ragged
cause the things you can't reveal
if you can not try and face it
then let me take what you feel

Chorus...
please say my name
before you disappear
don't leave me in the rain
with the pain of what we'd shared

Theres a light beside you shinning
but you miss it everytime
theres someone stand here waiting
while you're crying deep inside

You turn to me in a momet
i see your eyes stained red
i see your mouth is moving
and i can't hear what you've said
you bend your head quite closer
and my heart begins to swell
the look upon your face
spoke to me more than words can tell

Chorus...
I heard it like a whisper
but you said it anyway
i hugged you just as tightly
so you didn't slip away

And now we're treading slowly
and i let you have your way
i would love you forever
the exact words i heard you say

I’ve been trying to find myself
I’ll do it alone with nobody else
I can sit holding onto me
My legs to my chest, my head upon my knees
I don’t like how you’ve come so close
I’m pretty sure my heart has broke
Pain comes but lasts only fleetingly
If you think that I’ll break easily

Don’t step nearer, please just look away
Silent whispers of the words we pray
Paranoia filtered by your stare
Stop pretending, because I couldn’t care
You’re just a picture that I know I’ll burn
Couldn’t see where my life had turned
Watch the frame shatter as I punch the glass
There’s no way of fixing what can not come back

Over the years I accepted my flaws
And when I look at you I see all of yours
I’m incomplete yet perfect in my way
Nothing can change that nor anything you say
The feelings I have are alight with doubt
We all have our problems and we all want out
I’m cloaked by a wall that you may have cracked
If you try to hurt me then I’ll fight right back

Moods of a Woman

An angel of truth and a dream of fiction,
A woman is a bundle of contradiction,
She's afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse,
But will tackle her boyfriend alone in the house.
Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose,
She'll kiss you one minute, then turn up her nose,
She'll win you in range, enchant you in silk,
She'll be stronger than brandy, milder than milk;
At times she'll be vengeful, merry and sad,
She'll hate you like poison, and love you like mad.

"Every blade of grass has an angel that leans over it and whispers, grow, grow."

"Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within."
James A. Baldwin

"I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities."
Theodor Geisel

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown"

“If every word I said could make you laugh, I'd talk forever...”

"The trouble with having an open mind, of course, is that people will insist on coming along and trying to put things in it”

Claws of rage uncurled by hate
Wanting to retaliate
Ripping both flesh and bone
Eyes of heartless, winter stone
Teeth as sharp to tear and bite
Sharper still with want to fight

Anger curling in my veins
Driving off all my restrains
Pounding filling in my head
Stone cold heart as hard as lead
Fist drawn back and teeth ground tight
Blood within my line of sight
Flesh that meets with concrete wall
Makes it hurt the worst of all