YourLastRegret JohnnieBearHxC I'm Online

waiting for your call
as i sit here by the phone
the lights have all gone out
and i feel so alone

your call never came
i waited the whole day
i feel so fuckin empty
as i cry my life away

i lay down in my bed
i face towards the wall
the phone's rite next to me
just in case you call

but you still never called
i dont know what went wrong
i feel so forgotton
like i've been dead all along

so i go into the bathroom
and i lock the door
i take out the razor
and then blood drips to the floor

you did this to me
look what you've done
dont be surprised
when you see me with a gun

i go back up to bed
i try to close my eyes
all i see is you
and all your fuckin lies

i put the pillow to my face
and i just hold it there
my breathing slows down
but you dont even care

then i hear your voice
begging me to stop
i bite onto my lip
i taste a teardrop

i uncover my face
look up to see you
you hold me in your arms
tell me we'll make it through

you make all kinds of promises
say they'll never break
you tell me you love me
but i feel like this is fake

you move closer to kiss me
and suddenly i realize
i have this nervous feeling
and you give me butterflies

our lips gently touch
and in the moment we embrace
you whisper in my ear
and touch me with such grace

next thing i know
im sitting up in my bed
it had all just been a dream
and now i wish i was dead

i painfully close my eyes
i face towards the wall
push the phone onto the floor
i'll never recieve that call

and so i turn to the razor,for it is my friend
and it will take me all the way to the end
and when all these tears fall from my eyes
i sit here and wonder what it feels like to die

the rope around my neck
as i take my final breath
the gun to my head
as i wish to be dead

the razor in my hand
cause the pain i just cant stand
the knife to my throat
as on all these tears,i choke

the smile that i fake everyday
is as fake as your love in every way
i was stupid to let you in my heart
cause i can feel it as you tear it apart

when i finally go
you'll be the only one that knows
you were all that i had
but now all good has turned to bad

i just wanted you to love me
i wanted to make you see
i wanted to love without pain
but now this love has made me go insane

would you even care
if i suddenly wasnt there
if i just commited suicide
would you sit and cry by my side

i need your love to survive
remember how i said you were my suicide
i guess its time to prove
all i needed was love from you.

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the pain that i feel
just wont go away
everytime i try to leave
you convince me to stay!

i just dont understand
why do you have to lie
im sick of everything
please just let me die!

let me slit my throat
let me bleed onto the floor
just stop pretending to care
i cant take this anymore!

let the darkness invade my soul
i'll soon be filled with hate
please dont try to stop me
just let hell open its gate!

you said we'd last forever
that was just another lie
keep on saying your sorry
but please dont make me cry!

the more you say you love me
the more i open my heart
you say you cant lose me
but you tore me apart!

if you really loved me
you wouldnt of done this
but its done & its not over
the blade goes across my wrist!

the past always repeats itself
its never gone forever
you killed me inside..
but i thought we loved eachother!

i really really love you
it was my heart that you stole
the more you lied to me
the more you destroyed my soul!

i cant believe i trusted you
forever doesnt last
i cant believe i loved you
now please dissapear into my past </3

1.Whats your name?
2.Are we close?
3.What do you think of me?
4.Would u wave to me if u saw me walking by?
5.Would you say hi me?
6.Would you hit me?
7.Desrcibe me in 3 words?
8.If you had 30 mins alone with me, what would you do?
9.What was your first impression of me?
10.Do you stil think d same?
11.What reminds you of me?
12.If you could give me anything what would it be?
13.How well do you know me?
14.What do you like best about me?
15.Ever wanted tell me somethin but couldn't?
16.Could you ever love me?
17.Give me a nickname an why?
18.Are you gonna put dis on your blog see what i say about you?

1. What would u do if i commited suicide..
2. WHat would u do if i told you i loved you..
3. What would u do if i ran away..
4. What would u do if i kissed you..
5. What would u do if i hit you..
6. What would u do if i cried..
7. What would u do if i was bullied..
8. What would u do if i was in hospital..
9. What would u do if i asked you for help..
10.What would u do if i went missing..
11.What would u do if i got beat up..
12.What would u do if i stopped eating..
13.What would u do if i didnt exist..
14.What would u do if i died in your sight..
15. R u gonna put this on yr blog nd see wat i would do for u

You are the one that kept me sane,

Without you, I'm insane.

Your the one I look forward to seeing everyday,

To tell you that I love you each day.

You make my day better each time I hear your voice,

I love this decision I made, this choice.

To be with you, that makes my feeling turn instantly to glad,

Nothing I know will ever go bad.

You never do anything wrong,

I think of you every time I hear our song.

Here(In Your Arms), the words speak for themselves there.

Hearing it, I know you care.

You brought me in when nobody else would,

I knew you would, and you could.

Thank you for everything, I love you 100% plus more,

With you, my life is no bore.

You mean everything to me,

This I hope you see.

JohnnyBear January 18th, 2008 Friday

Have you ever had that one person that means so much to you?

The one that you would miss if they left you, went missing, or even died?

I do, and her name is Michelle.

I Love her so damn much.

She means everything to me, plus more.

Shes the reason I am insanly happy today.

I love her and she loves me.

Our love is more than anything else on this Earth.

When I'm sad, mad, or whatever mood, I can talk to her and she can put me in that special mood that makes me feel better.

I'm lost without her, she means a lot to me.

So if your reading this Michelle, I love you and I always will.

JohnnyBear January 18, 2008 Friday

I have the real me on here, I'm sorry if you think that I cant be trusted, but I thought you would think of the real me as a weirdo. So if you want to see the real me, comment me and tell me what you think.
Signed:JohnnyBear™

You made my life better,
Now that we are together.
"I love you, baby,"
This I say every day.
You are my world, my life.
I want you as my wife.
I have give you everything,
You know how to make my heart sing.
I love the warmness of your love, and the touch of your skin.,
When we kiss I get a grin.
You and me together, forever,
Apart never.
You make my sky's blue,
This is true, when I'm with you.
My love for you is true,
You have my mind like a zoo.
Without you my life is boring and plain,
When I don't talk to you, I go insane.
You and me together forever,
Apart never.

I see the fog,
Your breath shows it in the night.

Moonlight plays against your face,
paleness,
beauty.

You see me,
your gold eyes showing no emotion.

You finally smile,
handsome as the devil, but you disappear,
and I wake up to your lovely face.