smashinjt I'm Online

I'm your average 18 year old trouble maker. I'm not the preppy jock asshole that you see through the halls of your school. But i am the one that all ways looks to be in a dasse. I do smoke and drink and i'm not ashamed to say so, because i believe in living your life to the fullest. why live by rules of being good. You will die misrable because you'll look back on the things you wish you did but didn't. Ya drinking and smokings bad for you. But so is walking down the street. At any point in time you can be hit by a car shot burned up or even get struck by a lighting bolt. So i say fuck it and enjoy live as it go's by

i don't know how else to put this.
It's taking me so long to do this.
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.

My muscles feel like a melee,
My body's curled in a U-shape.
I put on my best, but I'm still afraid.

Propped up by lies and promises.
Saving my place as life forgets.
Maybe it's time I saw the world.

I'm only here for a while.
And patience is not my style,
And I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.

I get to go home in one week.
But I'm leaving home in three weeks.
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry.

I follow the suted directions.
I crawl up inside for protection.
I'm told what to do and I don't know why.

I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family.
I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cause I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
You still don't think I'm gonna see this through.

Tell me I'm a part of history.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.