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ok, this is a list of peeps i have to add whenever the buddy list comes back again...i hope its back b4 i go back to school...

Alexemopunk
0xXxEMOxXx0
3MOKID15
arryns
bartonj14

there will be more, im just not thinking of all of them rite now at the present moment...good gosh its 11:00 already...O.O...
ttfn!<3ya all!
-amaya

P.S. and anyone below on the comments will be added too!^.^

theese are three poems by me, and one by a guy who says my poetry and my personality (talking with him), save his life...

Broken Angel
by AJT

Im an angel
Full of purity
Full of grace.
I cannont be broken,
Shatterd.
Condemnd.
But I am.
Through all of the pain,
All of the struggles in which I entail,
All of others pain that I hold onto,
Just to save their tortured souls from Hell.
Love comes to me in a whisper.
I ignore it for I am afraid.
Afraid that I will become broken yet again.

The Angel's Tears
by ChildrenofBodom13

Soothing water
That cleanses my sins
It's a spell
That distracts me from my pain
It's a magical force
A force that heals
And I stay here in the angel's tears
Letting it clean my scars
The angel cries
For the lost life
But the lost life
Cna't see the pain
While in the angel's tears
The world seems to stop
When the angel cries
The troubles fade away
Just for a moment
But its a moment for peace
A peace that saves my life
The angel's tears
Are my savior
Time moves slowly
With it's beauty
It sets my mind at ease
This is the moment
That makes my lost life
Worth living

Collecting Fallen Tears
by AJT

He bathes in my tears
Hides in my heart
Not wanting to venture into the
great light.
I try to hold him the
best that I can.
He knows I have
someone who cares for me
deeply.
But he tries and tries to
dance me into his heart
A heart that has not been truly
loved before
Only loved with lust gleaming in
thier eyes.
And my heart,
The heart of an angel,
Loves thoose who accept her.
Thoose who treat her right.
She saves him.
Rescues his soul from death.
Her darkangel is her spirit,
The air in which she breathes.
The song in which she sings.
The lover whom is both time and space.
The owner of the angels heart.
Who understands why his angel takes
this poor boy's pain away.
O Deliver Me for the pain is just so vast
Give me the ability to save the prisioner's life!
If he dies from his inflicted pain,
There will be no more love
Compassion
Paitence.
For every time he tells her of his pain,
She soaks it in,
Taking it in,
Away from him,
Forever.
Every time he breaks the promise to stop,
Telling her even more,
So that she can dive into the fires of Hell and
Save him again,
A part of her is lost down there.
Crumbling down into the Darkness.

The Angel's Sorrow
by AJT

She stares out of the window
streaked by the pouring rain.
She thought she was loved,
thought she saved him from Hell.
But his angels were
any girl he could charm with his ways.
She is always there for him.
But now she is confused,
doesnt know where to turn to
try to help him live.
She will save him yet again
with her words of truth,
Hoping he willbe strong to
stay alive.
And if he dies from his pain,
calls his life to an end,
She will cry and cry because
she will be trying so hard to bring him back.
But it wont work.
Even her kisses,
Her words of poetry,
cantnurse his tortured soul
back to health.
And when he is in Heaven,
looking down upon her,
He will remember how he
hurt her.
And wish he could take
it all back.
He climbs back out of
the grave.
Tries to find his beloved angel.
But she is lost,
Still trying to save his soul
from death.
He wakes her with the touch
of his hand.
She turns, and then
looks away.
"I love you"
She looks at him trying to see him.
But because he made that one mistake,
she cant see him.
"I forgive you" she says to his presence.
But by then he is gone,
Only to cry in her heart as a sign
of his apology.

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so why does he love me so much?...any ideas?...
ttfn, and love allways,
amaya

what a name for a survey, ya no? lol...

favorite colour(s)?
purple, red, black

favorite wii game(s)(or any kind of ps3, xbox, etc. game)
ddr, marion kart, brawl(i just learnd how to play it, so i relly do stinx at it....XD)

favorite places to shop?
anchor blue, pagoda, bath and body works, walmart, old navy, yankee candle

most recent thing(s) bought?
earrings, shorts, tank top, shoes^.^

favorite flower(s)?
roses, gardenias(sp?)

do you get your nails(pedi and mani) done?
yes^.^

what sterotype would you classify as?
dont judge me...but i hang out with the anime people, and the emos and goths..they all hang out together...my bf is in the anime group, but he is more of a furry(sp?)artist and such...

any pets?
yes!=^.^= a cat named Spooky!=^.^=

fav animal(s)?
monkey's (omg. i just spent 5 mins trying to figure out how to plurarlize(sp?) the word 'monkey' i thought it was 'monkies'...that looks cuter! lol...anywho!), i also like cats! rabbits are cute too...

are you random?
cheese!^.^(i can be^.^)

have blonde moments much?
yes...at times...

cutest breed(s) of dog?
goldendoodle, yorkiepu

fav pizza?
pepperoni, spinach, and olives with extra cheese^.^

fav emoticon?
^.^

most used emoticons?
^.^, =^.^=, :$(blushing), >.<, >.>, -.-, O_O, and O.O

fav number?
3

strange facts about yourself?
there are so many! lol^.^
-i like peanut butter and pickle sandwiches
-i have certain times that i relly want to watch spongebob(it relly is funny!...lol...)
-i used to have a crush on Garra from Naruto
-i like being differnt(but not TOO different)
- i used to use up a full film roll of replaceable film on just my cat alone(when i was younger...i still take pix of my kitty though from time to time...^.^)
-i hate state football teams, and root for the ones me and the fam like out of state
-guys who work out dont strike me as the type to be all "*drool* omg that guy was hott"* im NOT at all like that. im fine if they work out, its cool dont get me wrong, but im not one to want to date guys who have a 6 pack or any10..if they do, then ok, but its not on my top priority list in a potential bf's looks...i go for personality^.^
-i prefer guys who are chunky, and are kinda pudgy(but skinny guys are ok too!) lol>.<<br/>-i like all generes eccept for heavy rap, country(twangy type), and bluegrass
-i cried at the end of the Titanic "never let me go"*bawls*-lol...
-ima dreamer
-i love to think up relly good titles for blog entries, journal entries, and poems that i write
-i USED to love aaron carter and dreamstreet

hey guys! i know i have not posted a blog in a while, but i think that its an apropriate time...lol! an update on how im doing? im doing good..have a bf!!!!!! His name is Danny and its been three months now...:) other than that, and me finaly finding the music to the River Flows in You, i am pretty much content.^.^
ttfn,
amaya

Some basics
What is your name? amaya jai taurus
When is your birthday? in one of the 12 months
Who do you live with? rents
What color are your eyes? not red
What color is your hair? wish it was a dark purple
What length is your hair? idk
Oh oh, are you male or female? f
Friends
Name your best friend(s): zac and aaron
Who has been in your life the longest? aaron
Who has been in your life the shortest? zac
Who of them do you trust the most? they are both equal
Who do you trust the least? neither
Has any of them ever stabbed you in the back? gosh no
If a friend breaks your trust are you quick to forgive? it depends on what they did
Food
If you like hot dogs, how do you like them cooked? on a grill?
How do you feel about steak? yum! i can make it myself!:)
Whats your favorite dessert(s)? strawberry shortcake, any10 chocolate
If you could have one meal for your whole life, what would it be? mac n cheese
What was the last meal that made you get sick? a pasta dish with chicken and cheese that i made myself
Beliefs
Do you believe in God? heck yes!
Do you believe in Satan? yes
How about Heaven or Hell? heck yes!
Do believe that Magic is real? yes!
Whats your opinion of Wicca? :P
Do you believe in life on other planets? "Im blue da be dee da be da"
Do you believe in spirits? yes
Do you believe in love at first sight? yes
Do you believe in vampires? yes
Do you believe in love? yes
Speaking of love... and relationships
Have you ever been in love? yes
If so.. How many times? 3 times
Have you had your heart broken? many times...
Have you broken anyone's heart? i dont think so...
Have you ever been in a relationship where he/she didn't believe in you? i thought that they did....but they didnt in the end...
Did you ever have a relationship where you didn't believe in him/her? heck no
Whats the biggest sacrifice you've ever made in a relationship? cant think of any10
Whats the sweetest thing you've ever done for someone? drew them a pic?
Whats your longest relationship? 5 and a half months
Are you in love right now? i think so...
If so, are you with this person? yes:)
Randoms
What color is your shower curtain? purple
What is a pet peeve of yours? oh gosh. umm...there are so many..ill get back to you on that one...
Can you cook? yes!^.^
Whats your favorite band? celtic thunder, coldplay, deathcab for cutie, motion city soundtrack
Do you have a favorite song? If so, what is it? "Your Guardian Angel" by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
What size is your bed? double
Do you use your closet or do you use dressers? dressers..my closet is a jungle...
Do you close the door or leave it open when you sleep? leave it open
What is your favorite clothing store? anchor blue
How often do you go to the mall? maybe three times a month..or once...
Have you graduated from high school yet? nope..nxt yr:D
Is there anyone that you just want to smack? YES...
What is your favorite movie? A Cinderella Story, Raise Your Voice, Juno, The Princess Bride
What is your favorite show? Degrassi, The N's Student Body, House, Home Improvement
What was your favorite movie as a kid? i dotn remember..prob Barney or sum10 stupid like that...
Do you like Dane Cook? no
How do you feel about Green Day? they are ok
If you could relive something, what would it be? my dreams
What is your favorite website? quizzila.com
Do you use AIM, MSN, Yahoo, or any other Instant Messengers? not too often
Do you block people when they make you mad? no...i just ignore thier ims
What is your favorite animal? monkey, cat
What kind of deodorant do you use? secret
If someone you know has bad hygeine, do you tell them? it would depend...
What is your favorite season? winter
Don't you hate it when women dont groom their overgrown facial hair?
-.-...wth? umm..its thier descion to do what they want! but still..its disgusting if they dont...
Have you ever had swamp ass? O_O what?
Whats your opinion of zombie movies? O_O ack!!!!
If you could chose another language to fluently speak, what would it be? japanesse or italian
What is a country you would like to visit and why? japan....anime!!!:Dcosplay!!!:D
Do you look at mirrors every time you walk by one? i tend to uninteltionally...
Do you like being on swings? yes..i wish i could go up so high and fly...sadly, im not a bird..but i want to be an angel...
Do you have a job? ima student!:)
Do you have a lot of shorts? only 2 pairs...the rest either bermuda or jeans...
Are you an artist? sometimes...
Do you like shark movies? ack! no!!!
How about dinosaur movies? no!!!!
What is your favorite subject? (in school or not in school.) english
Whats the stupidest movie you have ever seen? monty python(ALL of them) napoleon dynamite is WAY better
Do you prefer kissing people with thin lips or full lips? both
How do you feel about babies? soo cute!! after marriage:D
Whats your favorite thing to do when you're bored? ddr, mario kart, quizzila.com
If you could change some things on your body, what would they be? my shoe size
If you could talk to one famous person, live or dead, who would it be? idk...
Do you like to wear jewelry? yes
Do you have your license? heck no
Are you going to school in the fall? (college or high school.) h/s
If you could have one job for your whole life, what would it be? free of cost? hah! either a massage therapist, or a youth minister
How did you feel about this survey? loved it:)

This entry is specifically for songs i find that just stick to me....ok..the first one is "Mystic and Divine" by Luca Turilli...its on project, so please check it out...here is a link to the lyrics:
http://www.lyricspy.com/l/Luca_Turilli/lyrics/Mystic_And_Divine/

The second song is called "Heartland" by Celtic Thunder. The group is an Irish group (in case u couldnt tell from the title of the group) they are really really good! And the begining to the song is really cool too. If you can, check out the youtube to it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rvDqH3u0ynU&feature=related

ok..so im not exactly a rockstar....but have you ever imagined that you are the one prancing on stage, jumping up and down with your electric or bass guitar, and at the end of the song, u smash it down ontop of the guitar amp or drums? Call me crazy, but I do tend to think about that from time to time. For example, Im relly loving the song "I Will Possess Your Heart" by Death Cab For Cutie. I really would love to just be in that video sitting right next to Ben Gibbard while he is playing the piano, and just join in and play the keys with him. But I cant. Isnt he 31 or something? Ok. Thats just kind of wrong dontcha think? What would the autorities have to say if Ben actually liked me? O_O. I do not even want to find out. I mean, personaly speaking, I prefer John Pierre (http://www.motioncitysoundtrack.com/) of Motion City Soundtrack. Now THATS a hottie in the music world to me...dont think im leaving out Panic or My Chemical...heck no! Bob Bryar is my favorite in MCR, no doubt about it! But here I am...rambaling on and on about what singers are hott and such. There goes my preppy side again. Joy to the world.
<3amaya