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Okay so everyone should know me by now! I am Zane, and I am Eighteen, FINALLY!!! I have done a lot of growing up in the past few years. Through this I have come to realize, there is only one of me and a world of you. All of you mean the world to me, I love people, I love life. Something about the way people are fascinated me. Whenever they eat ice cream, give candy to someone, I don't know what it is, I hope to someday find out. As of lately I have found a new aspiration in life, but I can't say what this new idea may be. I believe change and experiences make the memories worth anything and everything. I can trust a perfect stranger, and I carry HOPE in my wallet, don't take advantage of that. I give everyone a chance, seconds are harder, I have the heart everyone talks about but can never find, I do believe in true love and I will argue if you say different. I love morbid people, I love prep people, I love the many different people. Your religion isn't a problem for me, don't make mine one for you. I joke, they get cruel, some very tasteless and sexist, I am very dry, have a sense of humor and know I only joke, I don't mean most of it. I am not easily weirded out, offended or embarrassed, it's extremely hard to creep me out. Don't every touch my armpits or my belly button, I fear getting tickled in the armpits, seriously that will keep me up all night, the belly button makes me sick. I clean my ears every other day, just to let you know. I am a cat person, but I love the rest of the animals as well. Don't listen most the time when I say I dislike something, I usually change my mind and love more than hate. Ha. I hang out with the most amazing people, I bet you are amazing too. My biggest dream is as important as your's whether or not it appears that way (remember mine is to prove true love exists between two people: man and women, man and man, women and women, and any other form you can think of.) This does not apply to older couples, I am sorry but you were raised in a different day and age. I still love you guys! I believe in our day and age relationships are easier to make and blow than money. People mistake love and lust, they are different but sexual attraction does not qualify as deep passion. I support gays, lesbians, bisexuals, transgenders, and straight people. I have three half bothers, two half sisters, one twin sister, one brother-in-law, one sister-in-law, one nephew, two nieces. I am one of the younger ones. I have an Awesome dad when he isn't DUI-ing it, a deadbeat father who tried to save the world (R.I.P.), a mother who puts up with a lot, an awesome Sherie can't say stepmom, some freaking cool grandparents, and a buttload aunts, uncles, and cousins (You define buttload, I cannot). I cry, I laugh, I smile, I frown, everything about me is human. I dress in black on days, I dress in colors other days, it doesn't matter the style, I like to be myself. I recently just poured bleach on my pants and shirts to add new effects. I love change like that. I belive that everyone's got a special thing to bring into someone else's life. I am a walking talking medical mystery, a hypochondriac to be exact, it doesn't make me anything different. I have a blood problem called Idiopathic Thrombocyticpenic Purpura (now in a good form of English), ITP, It's a virus that attaches to the platelets (The Clotting Factor of the blood) and as they circulate through the body the platelets pass through the spleen (the spleen's job is to destroy anything that is considered bad), so the spleen destroys the virus, and the platelets at the same time, I become a bleeder at this point. I haven't died from it yet and I don't plan on it. I also have a seizure disorder, only the ones in the head though, so I could space out at any moment. You've all been warned. I have flat feet, asthma, and allergies (including: IV GAMMA, Jumiper trees, Sycamore Trees, tumble weeds, Pig Weed, almond fruit bars, lactose intolerant, soy milk, sensitivity to meats, grains, and odors, dust, mold, pet dander, pollin, ax and tag body washes, deodorant, and sprays, pineapple, SOMA). Coffee gives me bad stomach pains, caramel colored sodas make me sick, energy suppliments make me spacy. I've changed so much in the last couple years, I've been to the bright and the not so bright side. I've been too happy and too sad, I've cut, I've done some bad things, but they made me who I am now. It's a bad past and nothing can change it. Don't judge me on it, I'm different now. I am terribly blunt, I believe sugar coating something can ruin all that needs to be done. I'm always up for new things and I believe fun can be found in things other than drinking, smoking, and drugs, but I won't judge you by that as long as you don't force it upon me. I get anxious easily. I am intimidated by gay men and their sex lives. I don't like to talk about it. Someday in the future I hope to change that.I don't really enjoy too much of that, I am more than a one night stand person. As of lately I haven't really been interested in a relationship. I am moving away in awhile anyway. I am looking for someone to be my friend, someone not to pull moves on me, and someone with something other then sex on their minds. I want to meet people from Portland, Oregon, seeing how I will likely end up around there anyway. I may not be the spitting image of what society wants but I am who I am. I try to be the best I can, I try to help anyone and everyone. Try it sometime, you'll notice it's easier to live when the world isn't appearing to try and crush you. Remember things go the way they do for a reason, those reasons may never be known but some don't need to be. Through this adventure of life I have come to see that sometimes the wine you drink is better than the blood running through your body. Best friends come and go, sometimes you manage to spend forever together. There may always be a possibility your friend may become closer to you than your family. Everyone told me to keep in touch with family, they are blood, but life happens and you move on. Everyone should be treated as though they are your family. No one is better than anyone else. We are all equal, money or not, black or white, homosexual or heterosexual, animal or person, gothic or preppy, city boy or country girl. I believe the world will end when we have finally achieved world peace. I think Questions are a part of life, don't be afraid to ask any, you got questions I got answers... If you want to know more ask me and I'll answer. I am the most open book you can find. I don't have the best body, and I am not huge like you picture trading people want. I am just me, not a body builder, not a jock, I love who I am. I don't whore myself out, more then likely I won't send you pics. You add me for fun that's okay, you add me for pics and you can bend over and kiss between your cheeks, if the pics are all you want go make your own and look at those. I am human, not a sex toy. So don't think for a second that I will be one just for you. ---------------------------------------------------------- Our Time Is Running Out Lyrics Muse- Our Time Is Running Out (Time is running out) I think im drowning Asphyxiating I wanna break the spell That you've created You're something beautiful A contradiction I wanna play the game I want the friction You will be The death of me Yeah, you will be The death of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it Our time is running out Our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out I wanted freedom Bound and restricted I tried to give you up But I'm addicted Now that you know I'm trapped Sense of elation You'd never dream of breaking this fixation You will squeeze the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it And our time is running out And our time is running out You can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out how did it come to this? And you will suck the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it And our time is running out And our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this?