Your Call </3

waiting for your call
as i sit here by the phone
the lights have all gone out
and i feel so alone

your call never came
i waited the whole day
i feel so fuckin empty
as i cry my life away

i lay down in my bed
i face towards the wall
the phone's rite next to me
just in case you call

but you still never called
i dont know what went wrong
i feel so forgotton
like i've been dead all along

so i go into the bathroom
and i lock the door
i take out the razor
and then blood drips to the floor

you did this to me
look what you've done
dont be surprised
when you see me with a gun

i go back up to bed
i try to close my eyes
all i see is you
and all your fuckin lies

i put the pillow to my face
and i just hold it there
my breathing slows down
but you dont even care

then i hear your voice
begging me to stop
i bite onto my lip
i taste a teardrop

i uncover my face
look up to see you
you hold me in your arms
tell me we'll make it through

you make all kinds of promises
say they'll never break
you tell me you love me
but i feel like this is fake

you move closer to kiss me
and suddenly i realize
i have this nervous feeling
and you give me butterflies

our lips gently touch
and in the moment we embrace
you whisper in my ear
and touch me with such grace

next thing i know
im sitting up in my bed
it had all just been a dream
and now i wish i was dead

i painfully close my eyes
i face towards the wall
push the phone onto the floor
i'll never recieve that call