And Please don't forget.

suzii1 (Oct 28 2008 - 10:26am)
>_> you are VERY observant. And Reading my about me? Yeah I'm pretty much throught with this ^-^ Yes I guess I'm happier. Nah. Not really. I want Labling to stop... 'Cause... Reading suicide notes... Seeing sad people. Seeing guys and girls hurt, so far, they cut, and cry, and hurt... for so long... they want to die, some do... When all they ever wanted... was to be heard... to have friends... to live a good life... Some people are insecure, and don't like how they dress or feel... Now most of them are hanging from ropes, or aiming a gun to there head, or laying in the middle of a road, Yeah their voice was heard... Death came to soon :[

suzii1 (Oct 28 2008 - 10:57am)
Thank you for understanding me. Most People are Oblivious to this, They Laugh if someone dies. I laugh at pain, But only mine, and Occasionally A friends, If it's like dropping something on their foot. But if it's their mum Died. I will NOT laugh. Many would though. No one Understands what i mean. Many think they do. I just need to write a book -__- It'd be like 500000000 Pgs. Long. But i'd be willing to write a book, If someone was Willing to read it. To listen to what i have to say. I wanted friends to understand me. I've had so many friends Die From this. Depression, sadness, Loneliness, Heart aches, Bad memories, All eat at their soul, And Most are Sadden Weaked, to wear they Will Kill themselves. I've been hurt, So has Arion. Jakine, And Jaihson. and even Von Kriza and Criß, We have all felt abused, mistreated, Unwanted, neglected, Rejected, Beated, Broken, Acussed, Torn, worn out from life. To the point we all wanted to die. Von's Dad died when she was like... 9 or 10. I think 9. ^__^ Her Mom went crazy. She was moved from family to family. Was to forget her religon and Join to Mormon. She was strictly Catholic. As Am I Presbyterian. ^-^ Her life went down hill from there. She started cutting. ect ect. and with Jakine. He was acused of his moms death, grandma's and grandfather's death. his dad died from cancer. No one loved him but his mom. He started cuting. sad things. T^T I found him. His life got better. Arion got cut across his neck, i found him dying on the ground, Took him to the hospital, With Gods mercy, he was alive. Met his twin, Skinny, little, kid.. Scars up and down his arms... Well there lifes got better. And Criß pretty much same story. But his life still sucks. He getting help tho ^_^ But I just want people to be alright.. To be okay.. To be Happy agian. Someway :[

suzii1 (Oct 28 2008 - 11:42am)
Thank you. But Life goes on. For some people. Someday, Emo May not be emo. Many tell me as scene was 80's hair. and skaters were freaks. It's just time for emos to get hurt, to die from this shameful world. To cry. Tears filled with blood, and hurt. It's just time for us to slowly die.. one by one.. Someday we won't get hurt.. Or Bullied.. With luck. I was looking up pictures.. For Tih.. And found suicide notes.. maybe Jet can be the son you guys always wanted. I've called my parents.. When you get this note.. I'll be DEAD.. and it looks like blood across it... And on someones wrist... it says hospital. Morgue. Get it right emos! They truely want us dead.. when we've done nothing to them.. but are weaker in size, in appearce, and inside we are.. But our heart, will be stronger, Love Wise. Because We never had anyone there for us. It teaches us to love more... To find The joy in life.. When it feels There's none and nothing to ever live for agian.

suzii1 (Oct 28 2008 - 11:35am)
Okay. And I just want someone to help me. I've made Blogs.. All I ever got was Hate Tho. :[ And You should die emo kid. stop crying and cutting just die now!! Hah. They want me dead. It's the truth. Nothing else to live for. But friends.. But are friends truely enough when you have the whole world agianst you?... and the weight on your shoulders?.. Is it enough?... or should all of us just die?... No one gives a care anymore. They Laugh at our pain. Are we really that much of a nuecence?.. That we truely Are hurting them,So much they turn on us and try to kill us with words?... My words can cut into anyones heart like a knife. I promise my words can hurt worse then ANYONE you know. But I don't use them to hurt.. I use them to help... But it's slowly killing me inside. :[ Sad Right?.. Hey.. Should we change the subject for a while?.. I sprained my hand, And it's hard Typing.

Josh sent me this.

"Isnt it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends, you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs, but smile at the girl wearing a mini with a t-shirt that barely covers anything? Isnt it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy, but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful? ISNT IT FUNNY that a guy can get away with being a gangsta, but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone? are you laughing? Isnt it funny a emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more baloney from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity? ISNT IT FUNNY that you dont mind your friends drinking or smoking, but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts? im not laughing. IT'S SO FUNNY that you and your friends can make a girls life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting. ISNT IT FUNNY that you can call emos, punks, and goths the retards, but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart. HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OF LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS? KEEP ON LAUGHING! isnt it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life without knowing her situation with her friends or her family or her life? BRAVE ISNT GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING. BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND. BRAVE IS GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES. ITS LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT. ITS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS. BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMOROW ISNT A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE, ITS ANOTHER DAY OF BITCHING AND DODGING RUMORS. KEEP ON LAUGHING. if you agree put this in ur blog. i read this and started crying. I've been that kid who is laughed at because of her music..clothes..friends..thoughts..words..feelings.. no one should do this.. stop it..if you see it."