its been a while

its been awhile since my last serenade im amazed my skull still encloses my brain for i was almost certain id be completely insane
by this time in life
how far ive come or have chosen to travel is only matched by the madness of each passing day that grows and grows, but never goes away
i can only hope that those i love most will never live their lives this way
im sick and tired of being sick and tired, sick of understanding, tired of being sick to my stomach, this life can be so demanding
normally quiet and friendly yet i cant wait to break your bones
sometimes i wish the doctors wouldnt have let me come home
fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person we're all told to be
ill be myself and if that isnt good enough for you then try to kill me.