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10. Lolita's Medicine - Legion Of Doom
9. Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is - Jet (I had a thing for that song last year didn't I.. Oh well!)
8. The Reason - Hoobastank (Oh God it's the song I sang to person over the phone with really badly and made a fool of myself.dflgldfgkldfdf. Gah. Memories.)
7. Waiting - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (I don't think that song is even on my Playlist... I'll have to see to that then?)
6. Fame Infamy - FOB
5. Here Without You - Three Doors Down
4. Broken Like An Angel - Crossfade
3. Decembers - Hawthorne Heights (Don't bag me for that one ;-;)
2. Violet Hill - Coldplay (I listen to it before going to bed every night.. o.o)

Yes Jess.. You bloody coward. Making other people do your dirty work for you.

GAH. I should've just waited and told him myself.. but then again I don't even know if he even got told by that person anyway. But I feel somewhat guilty now, and on top of that, my answer was no, so I would never talk to that said person EVER again. That person will probably learn to hate me over time. Doesn't bother me I guess..

i HATE myself.

A few weeks ago all was well but now my life is a living hell.
Wow.
That rhymed. -.-;

1. What's your name?
2. Are we close?
3. What do you think of me?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in 3 words?
7. If you had me for 30 minutes what would you do?
8. What was your first impression of me?
9. Do you still think the same?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. What do you like best about me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something you couldn't?
15. Could you ever love me?
16. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say bout you?
17. Would you ever be with me?

...I could kill myself.
=]

Reality in red.
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I can hear the sound but I can't see the rain,
Can't feel the tears trickle down my face,
But I can still feel the stinging pain,
Can't see a thing,
Though I am seeing red,
Why, oh why, am I not dead?
I ponder the question,
For hours on end,
Feeling like I'm just living,
Just living in a world of pretend,
Where the piercing screams of those who suffer can't be heard,
They're bonded to their suffering, unable to be freed,
And they won't help,
They need to be amused,
Consumed in their greed,

Yeah. Might be gone for a while.

I don't know what to say about today, it was stressful, hilarious, and just plain bad. The only thing good about today was having art, it tends to calm me, and watching Aisha and Julie attempt to kill each other with oil paints is quite amusing. But today they just HAD to get poor Jess involved. We were all focusing on our paintings, and it was quiet; a little too quiet. She brushed the yuckiest shade of green onto my hand... I got mad, and so I returned the favour, and before I knew it we were all having a 'paint-fight', if you'd like to call it that, until one of the teachers came past and was like "GIRLS YOU'RE WASTING THE PAINTS." I would've replied: "SHE STARTED IT!" but nah. I simply let a barely audible 'Oops' escape me. Then we exchanged glances and it started again. But Jess won. ;D

What the title says.
Sucky day.
I studied yesterday non-stop. x.x
Forgot that I actually needed to sleep.
Oops?
Well I crammed and I crammed and I crammed.
And I think I went okay with it today.
Really racked my brain though.
AND THEN.
I had to sit through a REALLY boring assembly.
The principle just went on and on and on about how she wants us to wear our uniforms correctly (Why on earth would we wanna do that?), and that she had heard about the jokes being made about how she wants to transform us into nuns. I think it's exactly what she wants. .-.;
And about how she actually sees us when she's driving on her way to school. And because we don't wanna wear our blazers she said she'd actually stop the car and GET OUT. Ooh. I'm so scared. Angry nun.

YUS. Oh em gee.
I just remembered something.
When I was in kindergarten, there was this guy named Clayton, and Clayton and I were really good friends. And one day, I asked him if he would marry me one day and he was all.. "Yeah! Cool!" or something like that
o_o
Wow. I've always been the weirdo I am by the looks of it.
That event was the talk of all the parents.
But sadly I didn't see Clayton ever again since I left kindergarten ;-;.
I didn't see Abby since then either.
Naww I miss them!
I think I know what highschool Abby goes to, one of my friends goes there I think, I might ask her to see if she knows Abby.

My piccy thing is too common. I see it everywhere. Dx
I needs a new one.
I think I might Oekaki one.
'Cause drawing something nicely and scanning it in then editing it and/or oekakifying it takes WAAAY too long.
Anyway. Dancing the night away next friday. YAAYY. It's probably just gonna be me and Lenny(Well that's my new name for her. Whee~), but I won't say yes or no if she asks to bring along Connor or Sam, I'll just say "If you want to." I need something to help me lighten up, I'm still not feeling 100%. Friday is too far away. I want to feel better NOW.

Oh and dad went to the hospital to find out about what that other thing was, and it's some to do with his abdomen, first his hip, then the kidney shazzle, THEN his rib or whatever. Wow. It makes me think, I don't wanna live to be old. I'd rather die young than have to live on pills and all the medication crap AND deal with diseases. I can already tell I'm going to have either some sort of cancer, like most people in my family died from it.. Nya. I might become one of those people. I remember two years ago, when I was in Mauritius because Grand-Pere was ill I stayed at my other Grand-Mere's place (Dad's mum) and she had her GREAT Aunt over at her place, that making her my GREAT GREAT GREAT aunt. I THINK. O.o;

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