Jester King's blog

Im done dealing with bull shit...
Im done being pushed over like a rag doll...
Im done having to be called weak...
Im done with my old self...

All of you can see that this is bull shit...
Only I can call the shots in my life!
My friends need endless thanks...
I myself ask for forgiveness of my ignorance..

Im done...
Of the system...
Of others rules...
With everything useless inside me...

Who will ever know that I was strong?
When will I ever know that I am not perfect?
Where did my life start going up or down?
What is my strength and weaknesses?

But...
Im done with this poem.

i wish that i could make this world a better place for all of you.
doing what i can to make you a happy person.
never letting any of you down, never to leave your side.
because i'm broken, pieces shattered.

those who believe that you could piece me together...
you cant my heart does not allow it.
i can try to make it work but nightmares plauge my thoughts.
dreaming and dealing with what the world throws at me.

calling out for love, for peace, for shelter.
but only to fall into the hands of the unknown.
listening to all of your words and believing...
but only for a second, doubting not you but my own belief

u whisper in my ear "i love u"
and i whisper bak "i love u more...but never more than u!"
only here i can think clearly
never there i can feel hardly

whispering love notes
yelling like crack dopes
sleeping in ur arms
waking to ur eyes, so warm

can i ever die?
or am i too alive?
watever it is life is whole
watever it is it isnt a bore

*whispering*i will never question ur love again!
*u whisper bak*y?
*whispering*because love doesnt question...
foreve...i cant end forever with "r"...

if u dont get it its ok, ur special lik that, life is so fun, until it gets too safe, or when some one with a funy hat a silver gun and a weird shapped badge on their ugly blue shirt...it almost happened here:P