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Chapter- 4 School again

I awoke to the song “Holiday”, one of my favorite songs. I got up and began to undress so I can take a shower when my cell phone rang. “Hello”, I said.

“Good morning to you too”! I knew that voice anywhere!
“Hey what do you want”? “I’m trying to take a shower. I said with an annoyed tone. Logan got right to the point.

“Baby, calm down I just wanted to let you know I’ll pick you up and we can go to school”!

“Ok sorry I’m a little moody”. I had started my period and I had cramps and was very irritable.

“See you in a little bit”. “Luv ya”. I was feeling sick. I didn’t want to go to school but relentlessly I went.

Chapter 5 – the Lake

We were on our way! I was very excited and was smiling all the way to lake Hamlet.
“Wow, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you this happy before.”

“Well I don’t normally take people to the lake and I’m hoping that after this trip you will see why I love the lake so much!”

“Maybe, I don’t know.”

“I know you will, here it is!” I shouted. I was so very excited. “Follow me I will get us set up and then I will draw you.”

“Ok, which way boss?” He asked me with a joking face.

“This way.” I answered back smiling ear to ear. We got to my spot and I laid my blanket down got out my art stuff and posed Logan.

Chapter 8- solutions

“What?” I asked in a hurry. I didn’t really have much time. I still had to meet Criss and it was already 6:30.
“Ok what if Steven broke up with Criss first. I mean if he feels bad about what he did, then all he has to do is tell Criss he is sorry and that he is dumping her.” She sat up very proud with her idea.
“It’s worth a try.” I had to call Steven back and tell him this idea. Quick!!!

“Hello….”
“Steven, hey I know that you feel bad about what happened with Sam and I know that you really like Criss but she is planning on dumping you. If you break up with her first she will see what-goes-around-comes-around. She has been seeing this boy. I don’t know his name but I do know that she is going to do it tonight. She wanted to see me at seven so if you break up with her before that I will have a chance to explain. Ok?” There was a long Silence. I heard nothing for awhile. Then he said “Ok. If all that is true which it probably is, I will get her before she gets me.” He said, even though it didn’t sound like he meant it I had to trust him. It was already 6:45. “Ok call her now and tell her. She will probably be at Taco Bell already so call her cell. That will give you time to say what needs to be said and me time to get ready and get there.” “Ok if that is what I need to do.” “Bye.” “Bye.”

Chapter 7- un-answerable questions

“I can’t believe that Criss would do this to Steven!” Sam said

“Oh, you’re just saying that because you slept with him”! I added.

“NO”! Sam said close to a scream. I gave her a very know-it-all look and she added very softly as if whispering “Yes”.

So there we were, in my bedroom. Thinking and talking. “Okay, let’s start at the beginning”. I saw her face and added “when you slept with Steven”. I saw the hurt in her eyes as she spoke. “Well, it was at that little party”. “You know the one that you and Logan couldn’t come to”.

Chapter 6- Saturday

“On holidaaaaaaaaaaay”. My phone rang. This was what woke me out of my dramatic daydream.

“Hey, what’s going on”? I knew that high voice.

“Nothing much Sam, how bout you”? I asked.

“Same here”. “Hey do you what to meet me here at Taco Bell”? She asked. I could hear the hope in her voice.

“I guess”. I said in a voice that would hopefully make her ask what was wrong with me.

“What’s wrong”? My tone of voice had worked. “I’ll tell you later”. I had hoped that I would be able to tell Sam this since she was like my best friend in the whole world.

Chapter 3- Sunday

Once Logan and I were at Taco Bell, we sat down and began to talk.

“So how long have you been going to the lake”?

“Oh, not very long Logan”. I said in hopes that it would ease him very present worry. “I started going a few years ago”. “It used to be only every other month and occasionally every other weekend.” “But ever since I became a senior school has gotten harder and life has gotten more complicated, so I have to go to the lake more often”.

“Why”? “It doesn’t do anything; you are still the same person”.

“Yeah, but for some reason it relaxes me”.

Chapter 2: A New Day

I was very surprised to see Logan. What was he doing here I asked myself but then quickly let him in. He looked around and sat on the sofa. I brought him a glass of water and asked “What he was doing here?”

He said he thought he would check out my new place. Then out of no where he bent over and kissed me passionately on my lips. I gasped at the quickness of his kiss and he noticed and stopped. He asked what the matter was and I replied nothing; he just caught my off guard. As he leaned over to kiss me again I didn’t stop him and in a few minutes we were arm in arm lying on my small sofa. I had no problem with kissing but when he began to unbutton my shirt I stopped him. “I’m not ready for this” I said softly in his ear. He stopped and sat up.

Chapter 1: Just another day

It was just another day to me, Adriana. I was in 7th period math and could not wait for the bell to ring. I would be free till 8:00 Sunday night. Being Friday, all the kids in my class were waiting anxiously for the last period bell. Finally it rang and the halls of Jefferson High were filled with tired and annoyed Teens. The huge rush of the halls is enough to leave anyone in a big confusion.

I slammed my locker and was quickly trapped in the wave of teens that were trying to get out of the building as fast as they could. In no time at all I was outside in the front parking lot waiting for Logan. My boyfriend.

have you ever heard the song "hopelessly devoted to you"? It is from the movie and it is my love life. see there's these two boys in my class that i like i love. The ones name is Ralph and he is sooooooo cute and i cant stop thinking about him and the other is sean. He is the dark mysterious type and he is to Hot!!!!! but the problem is that neither of them like me and i dont know what to do about that considering i cant stop thinking about them!!!! I know for a fact that Ralph doesn't but im not to sure about sean. I dont think so and they both treat me like shit..... what to i do and how do i get them out of my head. They have the same homeroom as me so we share all the same classes and all they do is bother,roast and hurt me............! I have two friends that like sean and 4 that like Ralph..... All i know is that i just want them to like me and even if they never do they should at least be nice to me!!!!!

For all u emoz out there and for normal people that want to slice their wrists and or other bodily parts it DOESN'T work. No matter how many people say it does it doesn't! i tried. It doesn't help u feel better it only makes u feel worse and then if ur parents find out u r in BIG trouble. I have to go to a counselor.

Listen to me it u wont feel any better after.

ex-emo/ Gabie