jak frosst's blog

Like a blazing star falling in the night a stand here screaming my defiance to absolutely nothing. Why does it seem that every time I try to do something right it ends up screwed up? Every time I fall in love, the girl finds out I am really a nice guy and steps all over me. When I'm not a nice guy, people end up thinking I'm twisted and cruel! Unfortunately, I truly believe most women are screwed up in the head and prefer the messed up relationships because of the challenge. You know I'm right! Unfortunately, going through series after series of short affairs over the last 15 years I still have hope that somewhere out there is somebody true.

Whoever's been monitoring me can just fuck off. I haven't done shit wrong and won't. If you got a hair up your ass then you can figure it out. I don't use any personal shit online...so just leave me the fuck alone. If you want to talk math...I'm always open to doing derivatives or any other complex problems you feel like throwing at me. If you want to talk music, maybe I'll start another band... Poetry... Art... Politics... Methods of Mass Destruction or ways to poison your enemies without them finding a cure?.... Well I know all sorts of shit.... I'm just no fucking terrorist... bug somebody who fucking cares!

Unfortunately, it seems that everything we ever do is find ways to waste time. Where does the creative spark go? It seems as if the rush to survive washes away any artisticly creative desires in the mind numbing shuffle of mundane exhistence. How can we say we live by collecting our material surroundings and create such shallow relationships based on our physical and mental desires. Most of us never even know the ones we say we love-for one day it all falls apart when they turn away or fade to dust. Can it be that this is all meaningless?

Anyway. At least we should enjoy the simple pleasures we can possess. God, I love music!